Boredom

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 22:29:37 GMT

Dude I am 17 the party for mason jade and dan was awsome We had alot of fun chilling playing guitar and doing stupid shit.. lauren stephanie and megan stole my car twice which is lamme first time they tricked me into getting my keys second time they had me on the ground biting me getting my keys. Yeah not cool but whatever. Alot of other stuff happened but im lazy. o and i didnt go to school at all last week cos i was sick so pity me!

MEHH

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 22:17:33 GMT

School is back and its neat kinda boring same old same old. but i cant complain. Uhm yesterday was neat and today was neat i had fun hanging out with friends and JD is back which is pretty cool. No one has been really touchy with me and its wierd im not used to it lol. But yeah Everythings good im not worrying about stupid crushes or anything Im just having fun and my bday is soon but there is a medievil fair at veterans on bday so maybe ill just go ride and jades and then everyones going to the movies i hope lol. if not Ill just stay the night at jizzy's house. But Yesh for now i am gonna go ride my bike like a trendy kid... Peace niccas

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 08:28:38 GMT

hola losers... I cant sleep i didnt stay up for the new year and its 3 in the morning... Hmm sooo today i got up and went four wheeling at my aunt nets it was fun cept my 3 year old cousin almost died... we were all just sitting there talking and he was just sitting on the fourwheeler and he decides to push the gas in and he takes off and hits a car and slides across the rocks and gravel and ended up wedged under my dads truck... I was soo shakin after that i didnt ride for the next few hours... it was a very surreal experience. but yeah but whatever japs a douche he immed me yesterday being like happy new years and i was like whatcha doin tonight and he was like yeah im fooling around with some slutty girls and dont ttell lindsay cos she doesnt like that stuff... so yeh i hope lindsay doesnt read this and tell jap lol but yeh whateva. I hate it when people do things like that it makes me sick.. hmmm oh and today my preppy cousin came over and annoyed me so i told her she annoyed me and she got mad and left lmao! funny stuff. Oh and my aunt gave me 200 effing dollars for xmas o.o *creams self* Weee ugh if anyone wants to hang out tomarrow or maybe monday tell me asap! For now imma go to sleep. Peace

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 01:15:54 GMT

BLAHHHHH i cant go to veterans tomarrow not that i even wanna take 30 min to drive there and 30 min to drive back but yeah family drama ish the lamest yo... PSSS I got new shoes ^^

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 00:17:23 GMT

Wooo party Im such an effing nerd all i did was ride for like an hour and play video games today haha. I <3 Mariokart wooo, my mom came over today and it was really awkward but yeh. I was spose to go to the mall cos thats where cool people go but i never went owell tomarrow i start babysitting my 1 and a half year old cousin so i wont be able to do anything till the weekend.so if anyone will do something with me this weekend tell meh yeh for now imma go chill play my new guitar.... PSS FUCK OFF... you know who u are >.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 01:42:15 GMT

So this is christmas... another new year.... eh blah its all the same parents fighting People dying children crying. It's wierd this year i didnt want anything, I wasnt excited about opening gifts, i really felt like i wanted to give so i did and it was good. But then all hell broke loose and yeah sucks owell Ill get over it its a day to celebrate the birth of our lord and savior but the thing is i dont think his bday was today but whatever. So happy holidays to all of u hope ur day was filled with fun and cheer.

PS: I need secks

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 02:34:27 GMT

UGH Yeah Everything was ging fine I was doing good didnt really think about all the shit thats been going on and it hit me and i broke down and almost died ugh Today started out good left with my cousins and bro in car to go to my aunts then we paintballed after getting shot in the head I went inside and just stared at the cieling thinking about everything and nothing at the same time but yeah then i thought about how i never spent time with my gma before she died me and her were so close but the divorce tore us apart. and then i thought about my aunt Johan and how i left so much stuff unsaid and shit. Now my grandma and grandpa aunt and cousin are going up to her funeral and im not going. Yeah then i got an im from someone saying stuff and i felt bad. blah then that someone kinda said something mean but I just blocked it out so whatever. I wish that me and that person could get closer and i doubt she will read this but its worth a try lol. everyone seems so distant from me. I feel really insecure about everything i feel like every step i take is a mistake, I have no closure with anything my christmas is going to be hell cos of my mom. I feel like ive been backstabbed by a bunch of friends almost everyone cept for Lindsay, kev, ryan, shelley
Yeah I just wish lindsay Would talk to me more and stuff and not about what other people say k well im out for now.

*openwound014's Untitled*
-x-First of all...Name?:	Kevin
-x-Middle name?:	Lee
-x-Age?:	16
-x-Sex?:	Male
-x-Sexuality?:	Straigth
-x-Do you got a bf/gf?:	no
-x-If so, what`s their name?:	Pamela Handerson
-x-How long have you been with them?:	alot
xLOOKSx
So, what color of hair to you have?:	brown
Eye color?:	blue
What`s your race?:	english// native american
Do you go to the tanning bed or lay outside?:	no
Weight?:	130
Height?:	5 9
Do you think your hott?:	no
Do others?:	Yes
Is there anybody you wish you could look like?:	Nope
What color of hair do you wish you could have?:	Same
What color of eyes do you wish you could have?:	same
-SCHOOL-
What school do you go to?:	riverdale
Do you like it?:	At times
Whos your favorite teacher?:	wittamore
Favorite Subject?:	English
Do you ride a bus?:	no
Do you like the schools lunch?:	no
Can you wake up in time for it?:	yes
Do you get in trouble a lot?:	no
Do you got a lot of friends?:	Kinda
-FRIENDS-
Whos your best friend?:	SHelley
Whos the prettiest?:	lindsay
Whos the nicest?:	kevin
Whos the friend you hang out with most?:	Lindsay
Whos the friend you want to hang out more with?:	Lindsay
-YOURSELF-
Do you like yourself?:	No
Do you smoke?:	No
Do you do drugs?:	Fuck no
How much are you on the computer?:	nota lot
How much do you watch tv?:	not so much
Do you like food?:	only a bunch
Have any peircings?:	no
If so, where?:	no
Have any tattoos?:	no
If so, where and what of?:	no
Do you like to hang out with your friends A LOT?:	kinda
What do you usually do on the weekends or whatever?:	Movies bmx jam sesh
-RIGHT NOW-
What time is it?:	9 46
What do you have on?:	jeans and a t
Whats your mood?:	Confused
How long have you been on the computer?:	20 min
Are you talking to anyone?:	yeh
Who?:	Shelly and someone else
THE LAST TIME
Whens the last time you laughed?:	all the time
Why?:	im easily amused
Whens the last time you cried?:	ugh today
Why?:	broke down emotionally lol
Whens the last time you fought with a friend?:	a few days ago
Why?:	POT
Whens the last time you fought with a family memeber?:	today
Why?:	Moms a bitch
Whats the last thing you ate?:	candy cane
Whats the last thing you drank?:	Coke
Where was the last place you were at?:	shower thinking of u
FAMILY
Are your parents still together?:	no
How many siblings do you have?:	1
What are their names?:	ryan
Whats their ages?:	12
Do you fight with your parents a lot?:	yeh
Do you have any pets?:	no
If so, what is your pet and whats its name?:	dead
FAVORITES!
Food?:	chili cheese dogs
Drink?:	Ice tea
Thing to do?:	Guitar
Place to go?:	concert
Girls name?:	Sakura
Boys name?:	tim
Color?:	Orange
Movie?:	Garden state lol
Restraunt?:	Perkins with old people
Fast Food place?:	Burger king
Store?:	Guitar center
Thing?:	bike
Person?:	friends
TV Show?:	Mail call
Band?:	Thrice
Singer?:	Dustin
Song?:	Music Box
LIFE!
Do you like your life?:	Eh yeah
Whats the best thing that ever happend to you?:	kevin
What is usually your mood?:	confused
Whats the worst thing that has ever happend to you?:	Death
COMPUTER!
I might of asked this before but how much time do you spend on the computer:	not much
Do you have aim?:	yeh
Whats your screen name?:	iwontkillordie4u
Do you have yahoo?:	yeah
Whats your screen name?:	otto_r107
Who do you talk to most on it?:	shelley
OTHER STUFF!
Are you in love?:	Kinda
Who do you love?:	... Lindsay
Whens your birthday?:	jan 21 ^^
Are you wearing fingernail polish?:	no
What color?:	No
Do you have a car?:	yesh
How much money do you have?:	40 bucks
What is one thing you wish you were doing right now?:	hanging out with lindsay lol
If you could have any wish what would it be?:	Die o.o emo
Have you ever spent the night with the oppisite sex?:	yeh
Are you a virgin?:	Yeh
Do you want to get married?:	Sure
Last...but not least...Did you like this survey?:	Eh
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 01:36:39 GMT

Yeah life sucks too much death and drama me and jap got in a fight really the only person i feel safe to confide in is shelley. so yeah Iono i guess ill be better when i go out and get my mind off of this stuff i always am better with im with other people. so maybe ill just go make out with random people tomarrow lol whatever im incredibly fucked up so yeh imma go

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 22:38:47 GMT

Yeah a bunch of emo shit has been happening but im doing ok i found five dollars yay. Ugh for starters a bunch of stuff happened with my mom didnt end well I ended up walking really far to meet my dad to save me, bro is suicidle i guess, My aunt died, One of my aunts is really sick, and my gma is in the hospital. I havnt really talked to anyone since break or whatever. I havnt talkd to lindsay in what seems like forever. ugh my mom is playing stupid head games so i given up on anything and everything... but yeha Imma go chill ride my bike and enjoy the cold wheater. Peace niccas

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 05:12:06 GMT

Yeah life sucks lol not really its going pretty good I did ok on most of my finals cept for math. I have to take math in summer school i guess. But I quit lol Today i went to the movies with mason megan courtney and lauren it was fun long as hell and i almost fell asleep but fun yeah

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 00:25:24 GMT

DUde wow everyone becoming a stoner and its so gay... thats like all everyone talks about is pot. it really pisses me off and i still am refusing to smoke it.. im not going to smoke it i dont care what anyone says and I dont wanna talk to the people who smoke it. Yesh so Im tired so i think ill go to sleep now peace.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 00:54:10 GMT

I quit....

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 01:53:01 GMT

Kay, well life is gay, haha Lindsay has been acting different towards me i dont like it. Fawk I wanna ask her out kinda but im not totally sure. and i really get the feeling she is gonna say no. I just donno im really confused and i donno what to do. Ive been a horrible person tho lately i told stuff that i shouldnt of told. I lied, I really deserve to be shot, I'm being pulled into gossip and shit me no likey so im just gonna keep my mouth shut =D. I feel really ugh pathetic. I feel kinda used, i feel like shit. I really kinda wanna switch schools, So yeah iono. my chance is basically here to switch so i guess ill just see how things play out this week and then decide =D. but Yeah I give up anyways im just gonna quit trying cos when i try i fail when i dont try i somehow succeed. But yeah Im out for now peace.

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 01:58:54 GMT

Omg good times sat was cool i hung out at th mall with Jap and aaron, got some chinese went home then went to kevs chilled there for a hour. Fun stuff sunday i came home went to get some pics taken. at the park then to wal mart i love walmart. today was boring for some reason iono it was ok, but yeah Im boring hahah I dont wanna post any of my drama on here but yeah peace?!

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 00:14:08 GMT

More straight edge kids O.D ing yay o.o sorry that was very random.. today was cool i went to el busch gardens and it was a truly awsome day. I was scared of roller coasters when i got there and then i went on the biggest one first and bitttcchhhh i wasnt scared anymore lol. Outside the park bryan and joe swung me around and people staired it was great and then I walked around with my "Phoner" and a bunch of people kinda freaked out.. it was great acting immature. then ugh some other stuff happened that im way to lazy to talk about it. but the day ended with tj chism and lizzy with battle axes fighting on the bus and we had a gummy bear fight. Good times. but now im at my moms and it sucks alot and the mp3 in my pocket is playing emo music and it makes it suck more cos im too lazy to get up and turn it off i really just hope the battery dies but its not going to, bad luck yay. Ugh my mom is totally over dramatizing the stuff with my aunt/grandparent whatever she is but it doesnt matter what she is cos she is close, and i dont want her to dye. my granny passed away like almost less then a month ago and yeah. Death sucks ass, and speaking of death last night i had a dream i died and no one cared at all. but yeah Im sorry for being an emo bitch when so many people have iot like 100000000 times worse then me i cant help it i guess im just a spoiled ass? but yeah if u dont like it dont read bishes. BTW girls confuse me so im stumped on what to do once again. I guess i need to just talk about it but i cant cos im a panzy. lol Yeah Wow this is a lot of rambling and i think the only person who reads this is shelley, hahah so here is my compliment to shelley... shelley is awsome and she is super nice and doesnt want me to get hurt so i feel special! yay K i need to go im getting bitched out, peace.

EDIT:: DUCKS have a phd in kung fu and they will qwak your head open! and rocks are a natural atraction of africa!

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 21:14:02 GMT

Yeah today was good i was a lil depresseded cos i feel bad. Tomarrow im spose to go see my aunt but im not going to get back in time from busch gardens... ugh it makes me feel all emo, but yeh today i slept talked about the trip and chilled at lunch i got felt up and my nipples bit off. and i got lindsay to skip and we just hung out it was fun. then i did nothingness lol but yeah imma go peace

All the straight edge kids OD'd?!

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 21:36:48 GMT

Yeah Well ugh im bored, i got my hair cut nobody came to school today. So i just chilled tried to sleep and stuff. I dont really remember today but yeah whatever. After school i went to go get my hair cut it looks ok i guess? but then i went ot go see my aunt who's dying and she was taken somewhere so now im super worried. Jaime is moving wed. it is a pretty emotional week but i really am going to try to make the best of it. Yeah also drugs piss me off i am most def never gonna try pot or anything cos ive seen what it can do to people, alot of things are really pissing me off but im just going to go ride my bike and play some guitar and ill be fine. So Yeah Peace.

Pss hope lindsay feels better. and sorry for calling shelley just for thomas' number =D

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 13:27:12 GMT

So yeah I feel like 100 percent better almost good enough to go ride, but yeah. I want some extra horny sauce... Lol *inside joke* but yeah Yesterday i did nothing. all day. cept at 3 i went and met lindsay at the movies, and saw harry potter it was good. then me and lindsay went to veterans and no one was there. so we basically jusr store saw her uncle. and went to anotherr park. Then i took her home, got home chilled and my aunt and bro came back at like 9 40, and i went out with my aunt to chill and pick up my cousin. It was fun. Having a 22 year old aunt who u can hang out with and stuff is neat. So last night was fun, I was a bit more quiet then usual cos i was really sore. Im sorry lindsay lol. But this morning my dad woke me up at 6 something yelling at me. Apparently it cost money to dial *69 so i had a 30 dollar phone bill and my dad is pissed now he said he is taking away my phone line so prolly no more computer or talking to friends unless i can figure something out. But yeah im bored... and im home alone. i know what imma go do! tehe Kevin time wee peace

yay my favorite song ever... Can you smell it? its the smell of teenage angst! Yay

Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted
to.
I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it
doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out
It's like I need time to figure these things out
But there's always someone there going

Hey Mike:
You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.You
know, maybe you should get away and maybe you should talk about it, maybe
you'll feel a lot better

And I go:
No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure
it out. You know I'll just work by myself.

And they go:
Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll
probably feel a lot better if you talk about it.

And I go:
No I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself and they just keep
bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside and it
builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my
name and I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming MIKE! MIKE!
And I go:
What, what's the matter
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing-wrong mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
And I go:
No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't
you get me a pepsi.
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up
achair and they sat down, they go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I go:
Okay what's the matter
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of
problems, you've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna
hurt somebody, we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
where you could get the help that you need.
And I go:
Wait, what do you mean, what are you talking about, we decided!? My best
interest?! How can you know what's my best interest is? How can you say what
my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy? When I went to
your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning
facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy.

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter I'll probably get hit by a car anyways. Hahaha

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 04:39:59 GMT

Today I got hit while on a fourwheeler by a car the details arnt important. Im fine. But yeah it made me realize how thankful i am to have people like Lindsay, shelley, shawn, jap, alice, ryan, kev, chris, blah etc. lol Yeah u get the point. I really feel like ive taken alot of it for granted. but it almost made me realize that i have left so many things unsaid. I want to say mos them but i cant bring myself to say these things. I cant bring myself to tell people how much they mean to me. Im pathetic but yeah Im ok.
This accident happened on a very appropriate day tho it made me super thankful.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 00:21:33 GMT

Today i got hit by a car while on a fourwheeler i thought i was gonna die. but yeah I must go ill put the whole story up later

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 04:01:50 GMT

TOday was cool not many people went to schooluhm it was cold this morning ryan and kevin left school and i didnt. First period boring me and chad just sat there and made mrs. wahl think that stuff happened that didnt o.o. We are going to hell. second period i did homework and watched coach carter. third me and shawn did some work and played hangman and i actually kinda talked to kayla. Fourth period i just sat there with holmes and mathison, lunch i layed on the table. candi tried to get lindsay to turn me on... Lindsay couldnt handle the challange. Im hard to turn on but even harder to turn off lmao. I got lindsay to skip! omg craziness. Yeh we walked to my car then to the lunch room at 2nd lunch chris had poppers and he was like Kevin gun fight get down *pop* and it scared alice lol. Then for 3rd lunch me and lindsay walked around outside and watched people have sex and i shoved a thermometer in my vagina. O.O then i gave lindsay guitar lessons but she didnt need em she is pro. as soon as i got to 6th tj is like art room! so we went there marlo and jessica scared me lol. Then fire alarm went off so i walked outt here with lindsay and lauren saw my cousin and then walked back inside. Physics we sat in there and talked. came home went to store and then came back rode bike got cold yeh it was a good day.

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 13:24:22 GMT

yesterday was awsome... First i got up got donuts came back chilled, thenn i went to burger king. then I headed off to my grandpas but he wasnt home. So i went bowling with my bro mom and his friends for his birthday. Yeah I suck at bowling, after that i went to the movies with lindsay and shelley, It was alot of fun, Chicken little was a neat movie. Fish was the best. Then after the movies we walked to a chinese resturaunt and on the way there we felt like we were gonna get kidnapped and brutally raped o.o, Lindsay and shelley tried to force me to eat but i wasnt hungry, So i just picked at lindsays food. Oh and we found out Jessica works there. After the chinese food shelley wanted to go home so we took her home, lindsay didnt wanna go home yet, so we went to the park and chilled, I jumped off a swing and almost killed myself, then we had sex in the tube thingy. Fun stuff. then we hung out at a breast cancer center lol. Yeah after that i took her home, and yeah i drove home and almost fell asleep so i forced lindsay to call meh, and we ended up talking on the phone till almost 1 Hah and i felt bad cos i kept her up. but yeah it was a fun night filled with lame joked and comments that were really funny o.o We are all such cool people.

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 00:13:45 GMT

Yeah so im at my moms it sucks. my bro got a psp Spoiled. Today was boring I went to school tookt he stupid asvab test for 3 hours got out stayed in lunch for all of 5th went to 6th then wittamore let me and tj go to the art room. Chilled there and then ugh went to physics chilled and then didnt go to the prep rally chilled with kev and them, came home keya needed to do laundry *wink wink* haha so she came over fun stuff. now im here chillin some more.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 21:49:16 GMT

Ugh todays my moms birthday. it sucks. Ive had a headache all day, Ive been tired and yeah.. Sausage is gay... she fucking attacked alice for no fucking reason. Im so pissed. And kaylas mad at me people are saying that me and alice have done stuff together. and yeah highschool drama sucks. Certain people think the only reason i like them is cos i want a gf X.X lol its not true. but yah I donno im too occupied to deal with it right now thats why i put it on here, with hopes of people reading it Lol Lol. thursday is my bros birthday. Lame. Sat night im going out i donno where but im goin out! yeah apparently im an asshole. So Whatever I could care less. I think i have a few good friends i just hope that its not a fallacy. I am like super pissed about the alice thing im def gonna try to make it over to her house and visit her. yeh other then that i guess things are going good. I got told im uptight and tense and never let loose which is a bunch of bullshit from someone who never hung out with me really. yeah. So whatever Im just gonna go clean and play some bass. Peace

PSS I found some polaroid film so imma bring a camera to school tomarrow woo

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 01:58:30 GMT

Ugh girls make my brain itch o.o Yeah I donno I hate being confused. Like I think I like someone but yeh when i like people they dont like me cos thats how my life works. ive got it all figured out hah. I can see my future and it looks bleak. I Donno everyone just sees me as a friend i guess? And then I get nervous and dont talk to the people i like when i like them i guess. Fuck i dont know this stuff. Its so confusing I wish i could just read minds. Maybe i should just confront people and speak my mind fully or something? I donno someone gimme advice o.o Btw Im grounded still. people need to call meh cos i got nothing to do like after 8, and im awake most of the night. yeh today was fun I skipped lunch went to gym saw my cousin and stuff then me kev ryan and mason all went and hung out in my car till 6th period it was hot as hell. umm yeh then me and tj went to grady's class in 6th and chilled she still doesnt answer my questions. Hah But yeah me and kayla still dont talk iono. its wierd. But Yeh Im kinda tired of always being viewed as just a friend. I Donno i get told im gorgeous and shit and nice and then i cant get a gf wtf? Someone people gimme some answers haha.

PSSSS Sorry for this being so emo but i donno.